Jordan’s News and Twisted Views

So I haven’t been posting as much as I’d like. Bite me. It’s hard to write when you have done absolutely nothing for two weeks.

I ended up ordering my new phone off of eBay as none of the local Bell hardware dealers carried the HTC 6800 (go figure, they just discontinued it a couple days ago on Bell’s website). It cost $200 + $25 shipping, which is probably about what it’d cost in the store after bullshit fees and taxes.

I ordered it on the first of the month, and it only shipped today. The seller took his sweet ass time to ship it out, aggravated by the long weekend because of Remembrance Day. Hopefully it’ll arrive tomorrow or Friday at the latest. My 8GB microSDHC card arrived today, and to my surprise it works in my microSD card reader - I thought it wouldn’t work with SDHC cards.

Sarah will be coming down this Saturday, which I’m looking forward to greatly. I’ve missed her so much since I’ve been gone, it’ll be great to see her again <3. She’ll be down for a week, and hopefully we can do a few of the things I have planned.

As when I went away, expect a dry spell in posts, although not much worse than it’s been lately to begin with.

As I may have mentioned in a previous, or I may not have, I’ve been having irritating issues with my Motorola KRZR K1m. For whatever the reason, it has horrible battery life, and the battery meter is inaccurate to the point of being useless. I have replaced the battery, to no avail. It leaves me to conclude something in the circuitry of the phone is fried, and my phone is out of warranty. So time for a new phone!

Bell has a HTC Mogul 6800 available with no contract for $149.99. The Mogul is a Windows Mobile 6 smartphone / PDA, with a wide array of features, including EVDO, WiFi, 2 megapixel camera, slide-out keyboard and touch screen, to name a few.

If, for some absurd reason, I can’t get the phone directly from Bell for $149.99, they are available sealed on eBay for $200 CAD + $25 shipping.

Getting this phone will require me to get a $30 data plan, which will give me 1 GB of 1xRTT / EVDO data per month, which I’ve been told is more than adequate, even with moderate to heavy usage.

I can’t wait, with any luck I will be picking it up tomorrow.

Preword

I wrote this post in two segments. The first part was written on my way to Moncton on October 15, and the second part was written on the way home on October 29. The fact I was gone away for over two weeks should excuse my lack of posting.

Bon Voyage

I’m starting this post just as we are pulling out of the Acadian bus terminal in Halifax. I’m destined for Moncton, New Brunswick. I have a four hour trip ahead of me so I suspect this post will become a long winded one. I’ve come equipped with snacks and something to drink, along with my iPod and (quite obviously) my laptop. The bus has power outlets so I won’t be running out of power, and I have an ample supply of cigarettes for my great journey … haha. Perhaps this trip won’t be as horrible as I thought.

For reason, using the stands on the back of the seats causes my touchpad to act erratically, no doubt due the rapid, pulsing vibrations from the energy. Oh well, I’m just as comfortable using it on my lap.

It’s really a shame these buses don’t have WiFi, because that would be a bonus! If I had known the buses had power outlets I would’ve loaded some more games onto this, since I can run basic games if I have full power (otherwise I cut my battery time in half). Looks like I’m stuck playing Minesweeper and SimCity 3000.

In a moment of stupidity, I just tried to open my bottle of Coke and managed to let it fizz all over my shirt and phone. Joy. So much for being as clean as possible for Sarah…

We’re in Burnside now, presumably to stop at the Dartmouth pickup location (for which reason I didn’t go to it, I wanted to get good seats. As of current I’m still sitting by myself and there are plenty of open seats. This should be a good trip.

I’m just writing as I see / think of things to write about. I see about 10 people getting on, so hopefully I don’t have to share seats. Instead of writing one huge blog post when I get back I will try to find the time to write a couple while I’m away and post them…but wait. I don’t remember my admin password…shit.

Everybody seems to be on, and I’m still sitting alone. Woo. Maybe a couple people will get off between her and Moncton so my last leg of the trip won’t be ruined. Someone has pizza, and it smells damn tasty. Oh well, I have mini Ritz and Cheetos so I’m good to go. I’m already craving a smoke, but I’m planning on waiting until we get to Truro (about an hour to an hour and a half away).

We’re on Highway 118 now, merging on to the 102, the highway we’ll be on until we reach the NS-NB border at which point it’ll become New Brunswick Provincial Highway Fucknows.

It’s about two and a half hours into my trip, we’re nearing the New Brunswick border. To entertain myself I decided to watch Eagle Eye, which I intelligently loaded onto my laptop before I left. It was an insanely awesome movie in my opinion. It really does show what a super-intelligent computer could foreseeablely do in the event of even one small oversight. They predict we’ll have computers as powerful and complex as the human brain within twenty years, and we can only improve them from there. It is often said we are not far from a technological singularity – a computer which can improve upon itself.

One thing is for certain, I’m going to sleep well tonight because I already feel the need for a nap. I’m enjoying the sights along the way, most of which I’m paying more attention to than the last time I came up to New Brunswick.

Departure

I’m once again on the bus, 15 days after I arrived in Moncton, and saw my love for the first time in person. I have been on the bus for approximately an hour, we are presently stopped in Amherst, and so I am back on Nova Scotian soil, both happily and unhappily. As nice as it is to be home, I am already missing my love horribly. Thankfully, we will see each other again on November 15^th when she comes down to stay with me.

I have about three hours left to my journey home (Amherst is pretty much on the NB-NS border). I should arrive in Dartmouth around midnight, depending on how many stops we make.

For some odd reason, I am developing a slight headache, possibly from motion sickness. I say it is odd simply because on the ride here I didn’t have any such problem. If I had to guess, it’s likely because it’s dark out and I can’t see where we are going.

I’m contemplating playing a game, but I really can’t be assed to do so, plus I don’t have any game controller to do it with.

I’m neglecting to write as much as I planned, mostly because I’m too lazy to actually use my brain and think. I’m somewhere between Amherst and Truro, and beyond that I have no idea because it’s damn near pitch black outside and I can’t see any road signs because I’m sitting at the very back of the bus. We’re back on good old Highway 102 but I have no idea where at.

So we arrived in Truro, and apparently since the bus I was on wasn’t stopping in Dartmouth, so I’ve changed buses (no big hassle) although it was a little anxiety pushing – having to actually talk to the driver. He was a bit more of a dink than the guy I had going to New Brunswick in my opinion, as in he looked at me like I had two heads when I told him I need to get off Dartmouth, and pointed out my ticket said Halifax. I really didn’t see as it being an issue since I was leaving from Halifax to get on the bus before it was half-loaded, and it was easier to get off in Dartmouth than have my mom drive all the way over to Halifax to get me and it was a scheduled stop on the route. Oh well. I fucking hate social anxiety disorder.

We’re on the move again, leaving Truro. I had a moment of anxiety regarding my luggage, as it has a tag on it that says Moncton (from going to) and I hope it didn’t get moved after it was placed in the luggage compartment. Let me reiterate, I fucking hate anxiety. Thank fuck for nicotine, then again I won’t have that for much longer since I’m quitting within a week.

As much as I miss her, if I had to choose between being on this bus right now or home laying in bed / on the computer, after having a nice joint, I’d definitely pick the latter. At this point I’m just sick of sitting on here, because I’m neither home, nor with the one I love.

I’m surprised, this blog post is over 1100 words long, or three pages in Microsoft Word, and I haven’t really described what I did for the two weeks I was up there. I probably won’t ever get around to it, because it’s really nobody’s business, plus I’m extremely lazy.

We just passed Halifax International Airport, meaning I’m about 10-15 minutes outside of Dartmouth. We should be merging onto the 118 shortly. I’m going to wrap up this post now. I’ll proof read it once I get home, or maybe tomorrow, and post it.

Thanks for reading this long winded drivel! I’m out.

Yay, it’s October.

I’ve neglected to post on here lately as I have absolutely nothing to write about. Even now I really don’t have anything to say, I’m just writing for the sake of writing. I doubt anyone reads this besides me, so I’m effectively talking to myself.

After a couple weeks with the new monitor, I’m rather pleased. I have a dual monitor setup, which is total own. It’s nice to be able to keep IM/IRC open on the second display while whatever I’m focusing on open on the primary (or alternately, watching TV).

I’m no longer single, and am quite happy about that. The title of the post has nothing to do with that, it’s just that I started writing this on the first and I’m too lazy to pick a new title.

This is going to end up being a very depressing post albeit a short one…

Four months is a long time to hold on to a memory, vividly at that. I thought in time they would fade; disappear into nothing. So much for that.

Those dreams I’ve been having mark the timer on a ticking emotional timebomb reaching 00:00.

Maybe moving on requires more than restricting painful thoughts to the subconscious. All that seems to do is arm that proverbial timebomb that goes off when you least expect it. I need a better method for coping. Millions of people manage to do so, and do so with much worse circumstances, I’m not sure why it’s so difficult for me.

Perhaps it’s simply because I’m an emotional unstable trainwreck. I wish things could be way they used to be…because I haven’t moved on yet.

I’m never satisfied. I always want more, like an human being. Right now off the top of my head, I could name off at least $5000 worth of consumer electronics and PC products I’d like to have. Slowly, but almost surely, I obtain them.

My next compulsive purchase will be a Samsung SyncMaster 2493HM 24″ TFT LCD Monitor / HDTV, as I subtlely foreshadowed at the end of my last post. Recommended by Jesse (TRAiNER4), Future Shop has it on sale for $399.99.

It’s a really sleek looking monitor. While I dislike widescreen monitors at 19″ or below (900 pixels doesn’t cut it for me in terms of vertical resolution), a 24″ generally has a native resolution of 1920×1200, hence being 1080p compliant. I am hoping running games at 1920×1200 will push my GeForce 9800GTX+ a little harder and get more performance out of it. Eventually I’ll get another 9800GTX+ and run them in SLI.

It features integrated speakers, and HDMI, DVI-D and VGA inputs with HDCP support. This means I’ll be able to connect my digital box to it and use it as a TV as well as a computer monitor. I might set up my current monitor (Samsung SyncMaster 932BF - 19″ 4:3 TFT) as a secondary display for when I am watching TV on the 24″ or just to have even more real estate.

Hopefully I’ll have it by the end of the week, the sale ends on the 25th.

On a personal note, I am totally smitten by infatuation right now and loving it.

I’m writing this post as I go. As I type this, I have no clue what I’m going to write about, it might take the rest of today to finish (started at 3:00pm).

It’s been about a week since I restarted my blog, and I’ve done my best to post daily. As you can see, I wasn’t completely successful.

I’ve been trying to auction off some of my lesser used gadgets on eBay. I’m back to wanting an HDTV again, my 27″ SDTV doesn’t cut it any more. I miss the crisp quality a LCD HDTV provides me. Plus gaming on a 32″ screen is epic win. Cost: $599 + 13% HST.

I sold my old video card, a GeForce 7800GT, for a mere $21. That’s eBay for you, but it infused enough money into my PayPal to pay my monthly webhosting charge and order a new battery for my cell phone; the current battery likes to die spontaneously after talking for ten minutes.

Right now I have my TI-89 Titanium up for auction, two days left, no bids. Hopefully someone buys it and I get a decent amount of change for it. I paid around $110 for it last September but never really used it for anything productive.

I have a spreadsheet keeping track of income and expenditures, right now I’ve got a long way to go before I can even come close to affording the TV. Hopefully I’ll sell my car soon and that’ll bring me a bit closer. I might also sell the P3 I recently obtained, it’s a fairly decent PC and I’d hope to get a decent amount for it.

It’s now 12:12am, and I still haven’t finished this post. I’m actually not sure if I want to spend that much on a television, as I generally watch things on my computer. Maybe I should invest in a new monitor instead…

That about summarizes the dreams I had last night. I don’t know what was going through my head but it led to some dreams about times I’d rather forget.

At least one of the dreams featured an ex I’d rather forget about but it seems my subconscious isn’t ready to let go yet. It affected me enough that I woke up rather upset, really wishing I hadn’t had that dream, or at the very least not remembered it. While it was months ago and I’m really over it, the spontaneity of it threw me for an emotional loop.

The rest of them were just general weirdness. Something involving being in an early timeperiod and trying to fit in…and getting attacked by some weird form of crab on a beach. At some point I was at TCS trying to set up an LCD projector…in the midst of some kind of military attack.

Sigh. Dreams like these make me miss my zopiclone.

So much for posting daily. I started to write a post yesterday afternoon, unfortunately I wandered off and never got around to finishing it, and now I probably never will.

I’m in a pretty happy mood right now. It’s an anxious happy, but happy nonetheless. I’ve been yet again smitten by interest and attraction. It’ll be interesting to see how this plays out, hopefully better than it’s treated me in the past.

I’ve been in a very “country” mood lately, so that’s mostly what my playlist consists of at the moment. Anyone unfortunate to catch me singing Shania Twain might wish they were deaf though.

“If you’re not, in it, for love, if you’re not, willin’ to give it all you got, if you’re not in it for life, if you’re not in it for love, let me make it clear to you my dear, if you’re not in it for love, I’m outta here.”

I’m still bored silly. Sigh, why is there nothing to do. I also need a haircut and redye it.

As you’re probably aware, I’m currently not attending to school. I may have found a compromise that will be a solution to me doing nothing with my life, and also provide me with a high school diploma.

I’m hoping to enroll in ICS Canada’s High School Diploma program. In short, it is a home-study program that is done primarily online. They provide specialists for support when necessary. The program can last from 8 to 24 months, depending on what speed you choose to complete the program.

It costs approximately $1000 CAD for the whole program, which isn’t bad all things considered. At the very least, it seems like a better solution than waiting two years to get a G.E.D.